Conundrum

I was supposed to hear about a 1-year contract position on Thursday, but Fay had other plans. I'm sure that the office will reopen tomorrow, so I will know for sure whether or not the next year will be spent at a payroll position. Part of me wants to get out of the house and get paid for it. I kinda miss the interaction of coworkers, the good and the bad. We sure could use the money, which is why I started job hunting again in the first place.

On the other hand, I really enjoy being a stay-at-home mom and homeschooling my daughter. We have fun learning new things together. I love watching the light of knowledge shine in her big, brown eyes. If/when I get a job that will require her to attend school, her teacher will get to see that daily (and probably won't even notice, because she has 28+ other kids to deal with). I feel like I'm failing my daughter in some way by delaying homeschooling. Truth be told, failing her in a lot of ways.

I'm not a school snob. I don't think that the parents who choose to send their children to public or private schools are doing anything wrong. I feel that homeschooling is best for our family, plain and simple. I won't go into all the reasons here (that's for another blog on another day). Suffice it to say that the pros and cons were weighed and the pros won.

$15.50 per hour doesn't seem like a lot, but that amount will make a lot of changes in our lives, for the good and the bad. And I find out tomorrow.